Below are the 18 most recent journal entries recorded in yellwrubrducky's LiveJournal:

Thursday, November 8th, 2007
2:53 pm	started a blogger blog, inviting people to read... leave your e-mail in the comments for your invite :) (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 7th, 2007
9:38 pm	Phone Survey! Yay! Completely stolen from Skye. 1. What color is your phone? Silver 2. Who's the first person who comes up under the letter M? Michael - Gary's brother 3. Who's the last person you called? Alicia 4. Who was your last missed call from? Alicia 5. Who's the 2nd person who comes up under D? Dan 6. Who's speed dial 2? Gary 7. Who's the 3rd person who comes up under J? Jimmy 8. Who was your last received call from? Alicia (we were playing phone tag) 9. Who's speed dial number 4? LaVergne Police Department 10. What is your background? Gary 11. How many text messages are currently in your inbox? 50 - all it will hold 12. Who's speed dial #1? Voicemail 13. What's the 5th message say in your inbox? from? Let mom get that 4 u. My prsnt should be wildly impractical - Peter after I told him to get me a gas card for my birthday. We've decided I think on a tarot card reading. 14. Who's the 1st person who comes up under B? Big Apple 15. Who was your last text message from? Ew! go to bed! - Alicia 16. Name every person you have text messages from. Peter, Alicia, Kierre, Jimmy 17. What type of phone do you have? Cricket 18. Who's the 9th person on your missed calls? Skye 19. What does the 6th message in your inbox say? from? I just thought i'd tell you that you're an amazing bestest friend and i love you - Alicia (AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW) 20. Who is the first name in your Phonebook? Alicia 21. Who is the last name in your Phonebook? Travis 22. Do you have a camera phone? Yep 23. Who is the last person under G ? Gary 24. What does the last text message say in your inbox? From? Happens. Sometimes, its the cure. - Peter my brother 25. Who is the second person under K? Ken & Heidi 26. What is your ringtone? Something annoying and generic 27. What is your favorite phone game? Tetris 28. Who is the 3rd person under A ? Only one A - Alicia 29. Do You Have Instant Messenger on your phone? Nope 30. What time is it on your phone right now? 9:45pm (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 30th, 2006
5:59 am	Bargain Shopper Whew! I just finished up a very long morning of picking through the internet for the absolutely lowest prices on the things I want! Fun!! This is what I got... I got five books for school for a little less than $30. I easily would have paid over twice that amount at the university bookstore, so I'm really glad I found these. My best buy here was the book "Writing With Style" for my social work class, retails for $45 used and I snagged it for about $11! I also spent under $20 on ebay for some Mary Kay products. 4 eyeshadows, ($8.35- retails for $26), one blush ($2.98, retails for $8.50 I think), compacts ($3.98- retails for $14.00), and mascara ($2.25- retails for $16). Anyways. I'm tired. Pooped. Nightnight. (Comment on this)
Saturday, August 26th, 2006
1:39 am	Mary Kay will eat your soul... I'm having a Mary Kay cosmetics party TODAY because I -love- the line and I wanted to SHARE it with people. When I initially asked, people (at work especially) were like YEAH OMG YES I'D LOVE TO COME and so I booked a party! I asked repeatedly and they assured me, yes of course I will come! I thought at first I might even have too many people, lol. Boy was I wrong. Of course. Today I did the confirmation phone calls and almost everyone bailed on me. So tomorrow I'm going to be sitting in my living room basically alone. I have three people so far, Alicia hasn't given me an answer but I'm assuming she'll decide she doesn't want to come, and I still need to get in touch with one person. Well, two people. And there's always last minute cancellations! I have one on the 4th, and I just hope it doesn't go as badly. But, I did make these really good things for it. Pop can breadsticks, rolled in crushed up salsa Doritos and baked! Then salsa and sour cream dip! They're really good! We're also having fruit and dip, filo dough chocolate things, and something else.. I've forgotten. What's awful is that Alicia wants me to go to the mall with her bright and early, and I've still got to clean this house so much more >.< oh man. This is procrastination! School starts back on Tuesday. I'm so not as worried as I should be. That is all =) (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, July 14th, 2006
6:26 am	Keep Alicia in your thoughts and prayers. Her mother died yesterday evening and we're all having a really hard time right now. (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, July 13th, 2006
1:19 am	An update for people coming into MTSU especially... Using the website www.ratemyprofessors.com I have been able to look at some of the comments of previous students about the professors I will be learning under next semester. I'll share them with you, and this is a good opportunity for anyone to let me know if you possibly have any of these classes :) Or have an opening when I do.. something like that. (You can also stalk me if you'd like). HIST-2020-035  SURVEY UNITED STATES HIST II Tuesday/Thursday 11:20-12:45PM BAS S102 with MARTIN, CHRISTOPHER BRENDEN and RMP says about him... ~This was the BEST class I've ever taken at MTSU. Dr. Martin's classes are EXTREMELY interesting, thoughtful, and well put together. He takes history and puts it into the context of today's conflicts and situations. He encourages discussion and debate and is very graceful about not inserting his own political agenda unlike some professors. CLASSY. ~This class wasn't easy but he's a really good teacher. If you go to class and do the reading (you have to do the reading) you'll be fine. He's very interesting and enthusiastic but also willing to do whatever he can to help. Not easy but good!  Very good. That sounds like a winner..... on to my second class... PSY -1410-013  GENERAL PSYCHOLOGY TR  09:40-11:05AM  PH 109A with DAVIS, TERESA L  And RMP says about her.... ~I really enjoyed this class. Dr. Davis presents the material clearly. She gives 10 extra credit points if you come to class and complete various worksheets. She gives you a study guide for every test that tells what topics will be covered. You don't have to read the book, except for the parts she puts on the study guide. Be sure to attend class. ~I loved this class. She gives you lots of extra credit chances. For her tests, study the review guide. Also, read the book. Anything I missed on the tests, she had told us to read about.  Also excellent :) Extra credit for the win!!! Next class is....  S W -2570-003  INTRODUCTION TO SOCIAL WORK TR  08:00-09:25AM  BAS S328 with LANCASTER, KENNETH G And RMP says about him...... ~I think the class is boring.  Well, I can deal with boring I guess. Boring is better than impossible. Next class is.... ENGL-2030-040  EXPERIENCE OF LIT TR  01:00-02:25PM  PH 322 with BREWER, GAYLORD  And RMP says about him.... ~fun, informative class--I learned a lot   (plus three other positives w/o comments) Nice! So far so good! Final class is.... SOC -1010-010  INTRODUCTORY SOCIOLOGY TR  02:40-04:05PM  PH 105 with PARKER, PATRICIA ANNA LISA  And RMP says about her.... Nothing! She isn't even listed! Hah.. I hope that's not a bad sign. Anyways, TR means Tuesday/Thursday in case anyone was wondering, and those will be the only days I'm in school. I'll only be in school until 4:05 though, which rocks because shortly after that a bus comes to MTSU that costs $1.25 to ride and it drops me off where I work, which is maybe 4 minutes away from where I live. This bus will also get me to school in time for my first class. GAS MONEY SAVED! Hahaha. Rock. This semester won't be so bad. If any of you are in any of my classes you'll pretty much rule my world, because I'm so not into all these strangers. No cut for you. (Comment on this)
Sunday, July 2nd, 2006
2:20 am	Hey. I went to an 80's Napolean Dynomite prom party last week. Spent $20 at goodwill to get dressed up for it :) I think I did ok... (1 Comment |Comment on this)
2:16 am	I'm so melodramatic when I'm on my period >.< Geez. Ignore me. (Comment on this)
Saturday, July 1st, 2006
1:47 am	I'm so unhappy. Why can't he be the person I need him to be? Don't I deserve it? I love him so much. Why doesn't he see how much he's pushing me away? Our relationship is so comfortable. Why can't I be happy? Why do I need more than he can give me? Do I ask too much? Am I scared that this will be my life, every day, forever? I am. I'm scared. Very scared. I don't want this. I want change. I want things to be different and he knows it. He's not changing. I'm so scared. It's 1:50am and I have to be at work at 6:00am. He went to bed early and I need him so much right now. I'm so unhappy..... I don't know what to do about it. I sound like a broken record. Nothing I say works. Nothing I say changes anything. I'm afraid that he smokes and drinks too much. I'm afraid of losing him to his own self distruction. He won't eat anything I cook. I think I cook good. He doesn't like vegetables..... I have so much on my mind. I want to go back to school, but I'm afraid of failing. I hate my job, but I can't quit. I'm afraid of failing at life. He doesn't care that I'm afraid. He doesn't ask me questions. He doesn't care how my day went. I care how his went. I care. I need a new job, but I'm afraid of hating it. I don't want to have to go back to Bi-Lo if I quit there. I'm afraid I'll never find a job I like. What do I WANT out of life? I don't know. I don't even know. I need to go out, to see people. To interact with humans. He hates it when I go out. He doesn't like when I meet people... but he will never go with me. Anywhere with me. I want him to go out with me, but he never does.... it makes me sad. I want to be a social person, but he can't get over his anxiety long enough to relax and enjoy life. I wish he could relax. I need to go to bed.. I'm so depressed. I think. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, June 17th, 2006
3:44 am	Just Shoot Me Went to the dermatologist for the... fifth time with scaly flaky patches on my head and in my ears. This time? He told me I have what my brother has. Psoriasis. I've been crying for days. It's an genetic immune disorder where my body is basically attacking itself. My brother is beginning to get psoriatic arthritis and he's only 24. God, don't let that happen to me...... ( Some Pictures of Psoriasis ) Mine isn't nearly as bad as any of that, but it could be. LOOK what it does to your nails. OMG. I just want to die. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 14th, 2006
1:09 am	Doing this again. Doing this again because it was a learning experience last time. Let's see what comes out this time. (By the way, the number 10 on my last one was to my brother, and his best friend did in fact die shortly after that was written. So sad :( ) Post 10 things you wish you could say to specific people. 1) I really don't care that you hate me. I want to care, but I just don't. 2) Please stop telling me you know I'll do better this semester. I hate dissapointing you. 3) The reason I don't come to church on Sundays or Wednesday nights is because I think you're all fake, not because I don't believe in God. 4) I love you so much. Please stop worrying for a minute and hug me. 5) Your anxiety drives me crazy. STOP FREAKING OUT. 6) I'll stop treating you like a child when you stop acting like one. 7) When you brought me a gift back from your trip, I felt so special. Thanks. 8) I get really jealous when you talk about going out with your new friends, but somehow I know we'll always be best friends. 9) You're the best thing that's ever happened to him, and I hope you never, ever, ever, ever leave. 10) When you tell me I'm beautiful, I don't care that you're lying. (Comment on this)
12:57 am	A silly survey. No cut for you! Answer with one word. YOUR RELATIONSHIP IS: Comfortable YOUR CAR IS: Imaginary YOUR SIGNIFICANT OTHER IS: Wonderful YOUR CONFIDENCE IS: Lacking YOUR JOB IS: Necessary YOUR LIFE ASPIRATION IS: Waiting to be discovered YOUR MUSCIAL TASTE IS: Strange YOUR HOBBIES ARE: Nerdy YOUR PET(S) ARE/IS: My life YOUR RELATIONSHIP WITH PARENTS: Moderate YOUR GAMING ABILITY IS: Awesome YOUR CREATIVE ABILITY IS: Eh.. YOUR HOPE IS: To find what I want to do with my life FAVORITE AUTHOR: Don't have one. REASON FOR LIVING: Not sure. PLASTIC OR PAPER....APPLICATOR: Plastic. GREEN?: Yes 1: Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, find line 4. Write down what it says: "...hasn't wed her longtime love!" (It's the Enquirer magazine) 2: Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you touch first?: CD rack 3: What is the last thing you watched on TV?: 30 Minute Meals 4: WITHOUT LOOKING, guess what the time is: 12:50pm 5: Now look at the clock, what is the actual time?: 1:02am 6: With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?: My fish tank filter humming. 7: When did you last step outside? what were you doing?: Walking out of El Rodeo after work 8: Before you came to this website, what did you look at?: Friend's page. 9: what are you wearing?: My work uniform 10: Did you dream last night? What about?: I don't remember 11: When did you last laugh?: This afternoon at work 12: What is on the walls of the room you are in? Not much. An inking I got in Paris, my calendar. 13: Seen anything weird lately?: Not that I can think of. 14: What do you think of this quiz?: Eh. 15: What is the last film you saw?: Film? Who calls them films? 16: If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy first?: A house. 17: Tell me something about you that I don't know: I have a fear of sleeping in the dark 18: If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?: I would.... kick all of the people off of welfare and foodstamps and disability that don't need it. 19: Do you like to dance?: Not really. 20: George Bush: gets a lot of shit wrong, but gets blamed for too much. 21: Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?: Don't want kids. 22: Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?: See above. 22: Would you ever consider living abroad?: Yes (Comment on this)
Thursday, May 25th, 2006
12:56 am	Ok, I'm doing this mostly for myself, but you can read it too :P Post 10 things you wish you could say to specific people. 1) Your precious little boy is the most annoying bastard I've ever met. I time my lunch breaks so I can avoid you. Please stop liking me. 2) I dislike you so much because I know you're going to become someone important and have a good career. 3) I used to envy you. Now I pity you. 4) I'm sorry I let you so close, because you hurt me. 5) I pick fights with you when I know I'm wrong. 6) I don't think you'll ever lose the weight because you don't have the motivation. 7) I like to argue with you because I learn more about you that way. 8) I think your skin is disgusting, but I know it's not your fault. 9) You're a hypocrit. You hurt the people that love you the most with your religion. 10) Your son died, your son's mother left you, and now your best friend is dying. I don't blame you for not believing in God. Or being addicted to drugs. This was very intense. Wow. (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 25th, 2006
6:49 am	Fainted Yesterday I went to school. I told you all about how I had to go through the whole adding my class that I dropped thing yesterday, so today is when I had to get the sheet from my professor and take it to the JUB to get the class added back into my schedule. My lottery scholarship is only applicable if I am a fulltime student. When I dropped that class, I dropped below full time. So, the state took back $1,600 that they had given me for the semester. When I turned in my add slip, the woman said "Well, you're back in the class, but did you know that you have a balance? It's due tomorrow at 4:30pm, and if you don't get it turned in you'll be withdrawn from the university." I knew immediately that the lottery scholarship hadn't gone through like it should have, and I got very very scared. I wondered if because I am on academic probation, I would lose this semester's funding. I walked out of the building and down the steps of the JUB. When I got to the end of the stairs I felt all the blood rush out of my face and then I felt my knees smash into the concrete. Next thing I know some old man is tapping my cheek and talking to me. I fainted! The first time in my entire life! I just kind of laid there for a second, opened my eyes, mumbled at him and got up and walked into the library.. when I got there I called the financial aid office and they straightened it out. I don't owe $1,600 >.< Whew! (Comment on this)
Monday, January 23rd, 2006
7:59 am	What Crap!!! I called my academic advisor (his name is Horace.. come on.. Horace???) and let him know all of what I have done. Basically, he told me I have to first go to the campus and get an Add/Drop sheet from.. somewhere. And then I have to get this scatter brained professor to somehow meet me so that he can sign it. I then have to get this sheet to some other office, where I will be put into that class again. The class that I don't want to be in. Yuck. So I called the professor to let him know what was going on, and he says to me.... oh.. no problem.. just come to class on Tuesday and I'll have the sheet for you there, signed and ready. Great >.< I would feel good about it, if it was the class I wasn't trying to GET OUT OF IN THE FIRST PLACE. Oh and the Intro to Philosophy class that I was trying to get into? Apparently there's like one in a million shot at getting a professor to okay it after the first three or four classes. Go figure. (Comment on this)
7:36 am	A New Beginning So this is my second semester as a Freshman at MTSU. As you may know, I screwed up big time last semester. I have to pretty much ace this next semester to have a chance in hell of keeping my scholarship... I'm still pretty upset about that. This semester I'm taking four classes, one lab. All on Tues/Thurs so that I have most of the week to get my work done (which of course means I still procrastinate and do everything last minute). English 1020-Research and Arg Writing (8:00-9:25am) Music 1030-Intro to Music (9:40-11:05am) Survery of Western Civilization II (11:20-12:45pm) Topics in Biology 1030 (1:00-2:25pm) Biology Lab on Thursdays (3:00-4:50pm) My Survery of Western Civ class doesn't count as a history credit, which I didn't know until I was already enrolled in it. I'd rather take a class called "Introduction to Philosophy" for the same credit, same time, same days. So, logically, I went to the website, dropped SOWC and got the call number for this Philosophy class. I then added the call number and hit send. Woohoo! A new class! Haha.. not so easy. I am about two days late (no, make that three) in adding classes. I can't just NOT have a class because then I'm not full time and therefore not eligible for my scholarship. SO I can't get my old class back (which BTW is freaking crazy hard and I have to memorize maps and LOTS OF DATES AND NAMES and it's not even a stupid History credit), nor can I sign up for this new class. I've been waiting, since 6am, for it to be 7:30am when I can call my academic advisor and tell him.... wahhh I don't want to be in this sucky classssss. Now it's 7:30am :) Wish me luck! (Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 18th, 2006
8:07 am	If you are reading this, leave a comment. Anyways. A period. A letter. I want to begin updating again, and I want to know who is reading. (10 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, December 16th, 2005
5:44 pm	I'm.. such a loser Out of my four classes I was taking this semester? I failed two, with big fat nasty red F's, and on the other two I got C+ and an A. Yeah, I suck. I'm probably going to end up dropping out of college and being nothing. I'm nothing. I can't believe this. I studied so fucking hard. I can't believe this. I FAILED two classes. Two classes. I failed them. I SUCK. I FAILED. My GPA is probably something like a 0.5. I don't deserve this shit. I studied so hard. I went to class. What the hell? I FAILED. I don't know how to handle this feeling. (1 Comment |Comment on this)